the creative process

I finally quit procrastinating and started on the bead project I have been planning as a gift. I was thinking it would be lime greens- all the pretty spring greens- so I gathered all the supplies I needed from the bead room and started pulling all my lime green beads. As I was looking at them together in the pan, I decided to add teals. I added all the teal beads I could find- from seed beads to crystals to anything in the right color.

Then I sat down with the full pan of beads and started on the project. I outlined it in a beautiful lime green, and started the interior with a great silver lined teal. As I was beading, I thought- oooh, that gold-lined yellow seed bead I have would look great with this! And I spent the next two beading hours trying to talk myself out of it. Why? Cuz I already know what will happen.

I will find the yellow beads, add them in, then think of something else that would be fabulous.... and then something else... and in the end I will have used about ten percent of the beads I originally pulled, have a project that is totally different than I pictured, and need three hours just to put away all the (used and not used) beads I end up with in the pan!!

But, the pull of the yellow beads could not be denied, and this morning I had to go dig thru the cupboard until I found them... and they look fabulous....

My creative process seems so messy- I never end up with what I start out thinking I am making. I can't knit a pattern without changing it either. Am I odd, or is that how it is when you are creative?

Anne